At the end of each year I find myself saying, “another year done already?” This year felt different. As a mommy, I’m reflecting on all the milestones reached this year: crawling, new teeth, words and walking. 2013 seems like a long data sheet in my mind. This year, I relearned sign language from my college years to help my Mister communicate with me while his speech develops. I stopped crying as the year went on with each immunization he received. I worried less when the thermometer read 102 and secretly enjoyed those few sick snuggles. I can name characters from a few Sprout shows and am learning a few new basketball moves watching my husband teach our son.
This year I learned more about myself than I could have ever imagined. When I reflect on 2013, the biggest milestone of all was Evan’s first birthday. We celebrated the only way I know how, BIG. Yes, 2013 was amazing and beautiful with a flash drive full of memories!
So what’s next in 2014?
New Years resolutions make me nervous. I feel a lot of pressure. Most often, I don’t know where to start. When I think of a resolution, health comes to mind. I’ve always focused on weight-loss, reaching a number on the scale. I tend to put a lot of pressure on myself, and sometimes I feel like I set myself up for failure. My body already does so much for me, and rather than appreciating it, I ask for more. So this year I’m going to take a step back and take time to thank my body. My resolution is to listen more and worry less. When my body says it’s tired, I will not ask more of it; I will offer rest. When I feel weak, I will not mindlessly eat; I will fuel my body with nutrients it needs to gain back its strength.
I challenge myself to carry this resolution to other avenues of my life. To worry less about the house work and listen more to the noise that surrounds me. Worry less about the nap schedule and focus more on the time spent awake. Worry less about staining clothes and enjoy making the mess. I challenge myself to worry less about what I cannot control and spend time focusing on what I can control: spending time with my loved ones, traveling home and loving harder than I did in 2013.
This year there are some exciting milestones to look forward to, all of which motivate me to be the best ME. How will you be the best YOU in 2014? —Jennifer